2013 has been...........

Well here it is folks. As I look at the clock on my laptop, it is 11:50 PM EST. This means two things; There is less than 10 minutes left in 2013 and it also means there is also less than 10 minutes until 2014. As we transition from one year to another year, I get on these cyber streets and see everyone talking about how 2013 treated them. No matter what everyone said, one thing everyone shared was the fact that they were thankful for the year and they are looking forward to the year 2014. Reading these various post got me thinking what 2013 was for me me. Well to me 2013 has been a year of transition.

At the start of the year, I was less than a month remove from graduating college. I was on top of the world. After endless test, paper, projects and finals, I finally could say that I was a college graduate. I believed that with this degree, I would have no problem landing any job. Boy was I wrong. No matter what job I put in for, I got turn down for it. It seem like I got these two reasons everything i got turned down for a job. 1. Well since you have a degree, you should be working for our home office not us. 2. You don't have enough experience to work here. I mean it got to a point were I got rejected by Target, Burger King, and Mickey Ds. Like who really gets turned down by fast food places, but that besides the point. Needless to say, I heard that for 8 long months. Then one day, someone finally decided to give me a chance and gave me at job. Now the job is def not the best/ideal job but i am grateful for it none the less, even though it is part time and it pages minimum wage. The struggle is real y'all.  this is not the only transition that took place this year.

During my 8 months of being jobless, another transition began to happen. I made a mental transition. When all that free time. I really had time to think. Think about what was I doing with my life. Think about why I had such a hard time finding a job. Thinking when was my time to shine will come. These are just a few of the things I kept thinking about. Then one day out of the blue, one thought came to mind that i had never considered before. "Trust in the process" Now grant it, I had no idea what things meant what so ever. Then as life kept happening, that one thought kept popping up in my mind. As that thought kept popping up, I started to understand what that means to me. No matter what happens in life, there is no such thing as a bad experience. Everything that we go thru has a purpose. The experience will help us grow as a person, to bring something to our eyes, and/or to teach us a lesson. After i realized this, things I used to stress about and worry about just did not matter any more. I know that something bigger and better will come and i just need to trust in the process.

One of most noticeable transition that had in 2013 was my weight loss. For most of my life, I have always been a big dude. No matter much my family and friends told me I need to drop some pounds, I did not pay them no mind. I was ok with being big. Then one day, it clicked in my mind that I am 24 years old. That fact made me want to make a change. The reason behind that was a girl I went to school with died at that same age. I had saw her on a random saturday night, and then the next day, I got a phone call that she had die in her sleep. She was 24, and she was overweight just like me. When that popped in my mind back in the beginning of 2013, I knew I had to make a change. I have a lot of things that i want to do, and i have a feeling that there is something major in life that I am meant to do and i can't let nothing stand in my way. So i changed up my diet, began drinking a gallon of water everyday, and started working out. Since then i have drop some weight and gotten healthier. I still have a ways to go but at least I am on the right track.

Last but not least, i think i have started to make a transition when it comes to my feelings.  For the longest, I have always said I never wanted to get married and i never wanted to have kids. I guess my reason behind this is I did not want to end up being one of those dudes who have a  kids and leave them. I figured that the only way to avoid that is to be alone. For the longest i was ok with this. Then one day all of that changed. If you want more insight into that, read my previous post nothing was the same. This year, i have slowly wanting to get marry and have kids. If i could talk to my younger and told himself that, my younger self would give me the hardest side eye known to man. I guess that all comes with getting older. You don't want to stay single forever and start to have all those love feelings. Those are the worst at times.

So there you have it. That was basically my 2013 in a nutshell. I guess the theme of that year was transition. These transitions were all over the place 2013. In the long run, they made me a better person. They helped my to grow and evolve  as a person. I can really say that i am not the say person that I was in the beginning of 2013. So thank you 2013 for all of the things you taught me. Thank you for everything that you showed me and for showing me what I am capable of. Hell without 2013, this blog would never have been created. I honestly believe that even though 2013 has been not the best yer for me, it was gotten me prepare for all the greatness that 2014 has in store for me. Heres to you, the year full of transitions aka 2013.

Wake up Mr. West

Before I start,  let me say that I am a huge Kanye West fan. I like his word play in his album, the beats that he makes, his whole "I don't give a f@$k" attitude, and the way he dares to say exactly what is on his mind. In his own way, Kanye is really ahead of his time. With all that in mind, I feel that I have a right to discuss the recent antics of Mr. West. I also feel that I have a right to discuss a possible solution to some of the things that is troubling Kanye these days. This blog come isn't meant to throw slander to him. This post is just a fans view point of one of his favorite artist.

In the year of 2013, the name of Kanye West was in the mouths of most people for many different reasons.  One of the biggest events that changed his life was the birth of his daughter, North West. The name of his daughter had the world saying "did he really name his kid north west?" A few days later, he would drop his sixth album entitled Yeezus. That album would go on to be one or the best-selling rap albums of this year. He goes on to launch his Yeezus tour which, by the way, I am still upset that didn't get to see but I digress. From what I have been hearing about that tour, it is a must see. People have been saying that YEEZUS isn’t a tour, it is an experience. With all of these things happening in the life of Kanye, the two words in 2013 that became tied to his name were interviews and ranting.

This all began with an interview he did for the BBC. Out of all the things he talked about, one of the things that I feel he was the most passionate about is his leather jogging pants idea. He was upset that he came up with the idea with this odd combination, presented it to a major clothing company to not only to have it turned down, but to have his invention to be made and produced by the same people who turned his down. Due to this interview, funny man Jimmy Kimmel made a spoof of this interview on his late night talk show that has really funny.  Kanye didn't take to kindly to that and went on a twitter rampage on Jimmy. This started a "feud" between the two. Eventually, the two made up on Kimmel show and the so called "feud" had ended.

Now after his album dropped, his interviews became 75% rant, and 25% about Yeezus.  

His next interview was one that I never thought I would see. He would go on the breakfast club to be interviewed by DJ Envy, Angela Yee, and Charlemagne tha God. Now one of the things that the breakfast club is known forward is there straight forward, no hold barred interviews.  Any and everything will be discussed on these interviews.  If you don't know who Charlemagne tha God is, he is basically a straightforward,  no bullshit person that says it like it is no matter if his opinion is popular or not. When Kanye was on there, Charlemagne told Kanye exactly how he felt.  First he said he didn't like Yeezus.  As the interview went on, he asked two questions that I felt would explain everything.  His questions were basically why he denounces these corporations, but said he needs them for his clothing line and why don't he just start his own line with all the resources that he has. Kanye gave his explanation, but it did not make any sense. It wasn't until his next interview that Kanye finally made sense to me.

The next interview that he was featured on was Sway in the Morning. Now the interview was a typical Kanye interview for the first half, you know, Kanye calling himself a genius, comparing himself to other great people, and other interesting things. Then when Sway asked why he doesn’t start up his own line, yeezy snapped telling Sway "You don't have all the answer Sway" and basically talking down to him. Now at this point, Sway looked like he wanted to knock Kanye out and I couldn't blame him. I mean what grown man wants to be yelled at/talked down to like a little child. After Kanye calmed down, he asked him the same question again and Kanye gave an honest/real answer for once.

As he was explaining his reason, there was four main points the he made that stuck out to me the most. 1. "As I work on clothing more, I not rapping as much." 2."I not rapping as much, I not having as much finance, I losing relevance." 3. "Relevance is part of my power that allows my brand to be big." 4." You juggle so crazy but then you get a Nike that can simply say the yeezys did good. That was a good job. Let me get you some more so you can start your own line cause obviously people are lining up for them." After he said all of that, all of his antic and rants finally made sense to me.

As far as all his antic and part of his rants are concerned, he is doing all of this to stay relevant. Just think about it. After his 5th album dropped, no one heard from Kanye or knew what he was doing. I assume that during his time away he was designing. He didn't pop back up until he started dating Kim Kardashian, and let’s be honest, that helped her career not Kanye’s career. Kanye really did not become relevant, at least to me, until his first interview on the BBC were his ranting first began. After that, people began to talk about him, thus he started to become relevant again which in turn started to give power back to his brand. If you look at point 3, he doing exactly what he believes he needs to do to make his brand powerful.  So basically everything he has done is for the betterment of his brand. Pretty clever Mr. West, pretty clever.

The last statement he made that involved Nike explains why he feels he needs these big corporations in order to get his clothing line established. He feels like he needs to go thru an already major clothing company in order for him to have his own clothing line. One of the things he was saying to Sway that he tried starting his own clothing line, invested 13 million into it, and lost all of his money. After going through that big of a lost, he still wants to start his line, but doesn't want to take that big of a gamble again. Can you blame him? No matter how much money you have, 13 million is still a lot of money. Losing that will hurt anybody; well expect Bill Gates and Oprah of course. Then you have to factor in that not only does he has to worry about his investment, he has to worry about how all the business decisions he makes will affect the future wellbeing of his daughter.

After all of that, do I agree with him? I somewhat agree with him. As a fan, I see where he is coming from. I can see how he feels that he needs these big name companies in order for his clothing line to come out and for people to see how great that he thinks he is. I can also somewhat see why he goes on and on with his rants. If that what he needs to stay relevant,  them he will continue to do so because that is want get his name out into the masses. Now as a person who one day wants to have his own business/company, I don't see why Kanye needs these companies in order to be great. He is an amazing artist, very smart, and has vast amounts of resources that he can pull together to pull of his clothing line. I think he is just scared and does not believe his own hype. I can understand the reason why he is mad with the fashion industry, but ranting and complaining about it will not make the situation any better. The best way to prove these companies from Mr. West is to prove them wrong, release and few clothing items, and show them why they had worked with you from the start.  As far as being relevant, Kanye is going about this all the wrong way. You don't need to whine, rant, bitch and moan to be relevant. When you rant, you don't sound smart. You say a lot of smart/right things but no one hear it due to your ranting and the way you say these things.  Just do want you always did to be relevant....make good music because to be honest Yeezus was not all that great to me. Maybe it is one of those albums that have to grow on me after listening to it multiple times. If you do have to rant, do it for a good reason like when you called out Bush on live TV.

Apparently I not the only one who feels this way. Famous people have put in their two cents on this matter as well.  Earlier this year Marc Echo, founder of the Echo clothing, stopped by the breakfast club to promote his new book. During his interview, he was asked his opinion of how Kanye feel he needs this big name companies. These are just a few points that he made. 1."Why the hell does he need these gatekeepers?" 2."You don't need the cosigns." 3."He's afraid to try on his own and screw up." 4. "Goalkeepers, the people, are going to transition and vote." During the same interview, Charlemagne says that he should make his line for the people. He said "Power will always be in the people, regular everyday people." One thing both Sway and Marc Echo asked was why doesn't Kanye start out small and slowing build up his clothing line.

So after all of this typing and thinking, I am just about ready to wrap up this post. So Mr. West, I believe all you have to do to get your clothing line up and out is just go back to the days that you was just a producer and want to become a rapper. No one just gave you a record deal. You had to prove that you was worthy of having one. Take those same lessons and apply them to getting your dreams out there to the world. Nothing worth having will come easy. Like I said earlier, just pull together your smarts and resources together, and I sure in no time your will see your dreams come to life. You just have to get humble and hungry for greatness once again. 

Dear "Real World"

Dear "Real World",
     
     First and foremost,  FUCK YOU!!!!!! FUCK you for the lies you tell, the dreams you have crushed, and the billions upon billions of people you have under your control. You strive off of the fears and weaknesses of others, and in turn, you use these things to control the same people you claim you want to see succeed. Your high standard of the mood that a person should be and look like is nothing but lies upon lies upon lies. You have people to think that getting a degree will insure a person to a great/high playing job. What you don't mention is the large amount of debt that millions of people will be enslaved to after getting that degree, and having that degree will not promise you that high paying job. You also forgot to mention that with that degree, some jobs will not hire you because of it.

      You have people slaving away at a bullshit jobs just to get buy. You make people living in a world built for one type of people instead of all types of people.  You want people to live in a black and white world, but nothing in this world is made to be just black and white. You have people settling for less than they are destined for. You have folks working a dull 9 to 5 so they insure job security instead of looking for a career or starting up their own business.  For that, you should be a shame.

        Even though you have most people fooled, you do not have every one fooled. Slowly but sure, people are starting to see thru the illusion that you have been casting for such a long time. People are really starting to rise up. More and more,  we are seeing people are breaking against the rules that you have set into place and setting a some new rules.  They are showing that there is another way to gain success than the way that you said. They are showing that their isn't a way a person should look to be successful.  They are showing that with a dream, faith,  and hardwork, anything is possible.  Really they are showing that anybody, no matter who you are, can achieve their goals and dreams.

        So in close,  once again real world,  FUCK YOU! Even though you are still a powerful force, I feel that one day your region of terror will be over. People will wake up, live out their dreams,  and truly live out their life. So until then real world,  I have no choice but to go by your rules right now. When I do become successful, my success story will inspire others to follow their dreams/passion and find their own way to success. So beware real world,  BEWARE!!!!!!

SIGNED,
An unplug rebel

25 years of lessons

Boy ol boy, yesterday has been a great one. As I tune in to this show on mtv, I begin to recap my day. First and foremost, it was my 25th bornday. I didn't do too much for it. I went out for breakfast with my family, got a new phone, went to the barbershop,  hanged with some friends at the movies,  went out to dinner, and went a pool hall. All and all, I had a pretty great day. Throughout the day,  I thought about everything that I have been throughout these 25 years of living, whether it was good,  bad, or a little bit of both. As I was thinking, a few main points stuck out to me that has really impacted me. So I thought I would share a few of the lessons that I have learned thus far in this journey called life.

1. Put god first
There was times in life that we have hit rock bottom,  lost in the darkness,  and feels like the world is against them.  I certainly know that I have felt like that at one time or another.  The only thing that has kept my head above water is god. It hasn't/wasn't nothing that I done to deserve his mercy but nonetheless,  he saw fit to deliver me from my hardest times. Now I not saying that following God will make everything good because you will get tested at times. Just keep him first and know that everything will work out for the best.

2. Be yourself, no matter what others think
Now this lesson took me a while to learn. It took me till I got to college to understand this. Now don't get me wrong. Before college,  I was still the same werid, odd, a less random person that I am now. I think the main reason I didn't embrace myself was due to others. I did have a few friends pre college while being myself. Now when i got to college, I didn't  change anything about me.  In fact, being my weird, odd self actually gained me some of the best friends that i have now. Just be yourself.  Real people will like you for who you are. I would rather have a few friends that like the real me then a lot of friends that like a fake me.

3. Karma is REAL
I can't stress this fact enough. You get what you put out into the world. If you do good things,  good things will happen to you. If you do bad things, well expect bad things to happen to you. No one escape from karma judgement. Just because you get away with something in the eyes of humans doesn't mean you will have the same luck with karma. One of the funniest thing about karma is that it doesn't always come back at you the way you dish it out. The affects could be minor or it could be major. Remember there is a consequence for every action that you do.

4. Don't be afraid of love
Lets face it. At one put or anothor, we will all fall in love. To some people that is a scary thought because love is one of the beautiful/scariest thing known to man kind. To this day, love is the one factor in life that we as humans have no control over what so ever.  It comes without warning and you have no control over who you fall in love with. With all that in mind, don't be afraid of love.  My friend once told me that you have to find someone that is worth diving in the pool of love with. If you find someone that you really care about with all your heart, tell that person because that person just might feel the same way about you. Even if they don't, don't give up on love. I would rather hear a no than to life in a world of "what if".  Love will happen to you when it is supposed to and when you least expect it to. Just let love find you.

5. Trust in the process
I believe one of the most used phrases known to man is "everthing happens for a reason". At first I didn't believe it. I thought it was just something that folks said. As I became older, that phrase started to become true. The reason why we go through these is to teach us a lesson, to make us stronger, to help us to grow, and to bring certain things to our attention that needs our focus.  We never understand why things happen to us while we are going through it, but afterwards it all makes sense to us. That why I said trust in the process because you never know what you will get from your process.

So there you have it folks. These are just a few of many lessons that I have learned over the past 25 years.  These have molded me in to the person that I am today. As I continue to live, there will be other life lesson to be learn, new experiences to be had, more trails to face, and other things life will throw at you. At the end of the day, learn from the lessons that life gives you and grow to be a better person each day that you live 

Things that I am thankful for

So today is thanksgiving.  Across the USA, people are sitting at their tables, eating some good food, getting their drink on, and watching football.  By now, most people are suffering from that food induced sleeping condition known as the ITIS. As we gather with our family, friends and love ones to enjoy this holiday,  lets not forget to remember one of the main aspects of this holiday, which is to be thankful.  Some folks have a lot to be thankful for,  and some have a few things to be thankful for. Nether the this, we all have something to be thankful for. So in honor of this day, I thought I will list a few of this day that I am thankful on this holiday season.

1. First and foremost,  I am thankful for god.  He has been there for me at all tlimes even when I wasn't the best child and believer. He has gotten me through some tough times and I am truly thankful for his grace, mercy, and patience with me.

2. I am thankful for my family.  Even though they gey on my nevres at times, I wouldn't trade them for the world.

3. I am thankful for my true friends. We joke at each other, we sometimes get in arguments,  but at the end of the day, I know without a doubt they will be there for me when I need them the most .  They accept me for who i am and they don't try to change me. The y are more than just friends,  they are my family.

4. Even though its not my ideal one, I am thankful for my job. I know that a better one is on the way so until then, I going to stay with this one because it better them not having one at all.

5. I am thankful for this process called life. Through the ups and downs, and curveball, life has been good to me for the most part.

6. I am thankful for the fact I went to college.  Not for the degree I earned, but for the valuable lessons that I learned along the way. The most important lesson I is that it is okay to be myself and their are people who will like me for it.

7. I am thankful for being an original.  An original will always be more valuable than a copy.

8. Last but not least,  I am thankful for the future and what it has in store.  I know the future at times seems scart, but I actually looking forward to it.  I feel/know that greatness is in store for me. I am on the verge of greatness and success maybe not right now but sooner or later it will happen.

So here are just a few things that I am thankful/grateful for on this Thanksgiving season.  What are some of the things you are thankful for on this day?

Nothing was the same

So exactly six years ago on this very date, a young 18 old me was enjoying being a freshman at fort valley stage university aka the valley.  Everything was so new to me, and I was slowly but surely getting used to these new changes.  I had people who actually liked me for my weirdness and I was in the cool crowd believe it or not. I was loving every single moment of this. The feeling of having a taste of freedom was a new experience for me.  It seemed the stars had aligned in the heavens,  and things were going great/amazing for me. Nothing could possibility could elevate the feeling of fitting in or just being me at all times,  or so I thought. On October 30 2007, six years ago, I met/was introduced to someone and since then, nothing has been the same.

This day was on a Tuesday,  and during this time I only had two classes to go to so by 12 pm, I would be done for the day. Now around this time, I would go straight from my last class to the cafe to get something to eat.  So after I got my eat on, and I was heading back to my room when I bumped into my homie. When I saw him, he was talking to a female. Now usually he is always talking to someone, so I really did not pay the girl no mind. As I was about to head back to my room, my homie asked me to hang with them. Of course I had nothing better to do so I waent a long with them. As we are walking, we stopped by the girl dorm before heading to my homie's place.  So we take the short cut by to his place,  and during this time,  the two of them are talking up a storm. So five minutes later we get to my homie's place. I sit on the couch and the females sits on the other end of the couch. 

After a while, my amigo goes to the bathroom for a good minute.  So while this was going on,  the girl starts talking to me. She ask me the normal first time meeting. You know what I mean, "how old are you, where are you from, what you like to do, and what's your major. " I answered all of these questions and ask her all of the same questions. So we have a good conversation and everything,  then she ask me do I have a girlfriend.  I tell her no, and when I was about to ask her if she got a boyfriend,  my homie's roommate comes over, gets in the middle of us and start talking to her. Needless to say, he killed the whole vibe of the convo that the female and I had. My homie comes out of his room, and we take her back to her room before we head off to Warner Robins. After that,  I figured I probably wouldn't bump into her again. Boy was I dead wrong.

The next day, I run into her after my last class of the day.  She said hey to me and asked if I remembered her name.  At this point,  I feel bad because she remembered my name and I didn't remember her name.  She tells me her name again and we spark up a small convo. Afterwards I head to my room. Later that night,  I bump into her again before heading to a halloween party. She was with her friend and I was with my friends. We talked again,  and we parted ways again.  We met up at the Halloween party twice and on both occasions, some how we ended up dancing.  After the party, we said our goodbyes and parted ways yet again.

Now over the next few weeks,  we would run into each other and talk to ome another.  We exchange numbers and occasionally texted each other.  We would hangout with our friends or just the two of us. We would eat dinner at the cafe,  and if there was something happening on campus, we would check it out if it was were free. She came to my birthday party before the semester was over and during Christmas break, we talked like twice. When we got back from break, we became cooler and hanged out more.  She was always there for me and I truly appreciated that.  As the school year ended,  we said our goodbyes and parted ways for the summer.

Before the new school year started, she called me to see if I was back at school and just the to catch up. As the semester took place,  a lot of things were going on with me and I didn't want to around basically no one. I was in a really bad place in my life during this time, and it seemed like it was my cross to bare along. Because of this, I pushed a lot of people away,  including her.  I just stopped talking to her, and hanging with her. All she wanted to know what was going on, and why I stopped talking/hanging with her. I didn't want to tell her, so I just left her alone and ignored her. At the time, i honestly thought I was during the right thing for her by not being near or around her. I didn't want to drag her in to my own problems.  This lasted the whole semester.  By the time Christmas break, I just told her whay was going on and told her I was sorry. She forgave me and we were cool once again.  Before the new semester started,  I decided to take some time off from school to deal with some problems. Before I left,  I saw her, she asked if I was okay,  then she gave me and hug and smiled.  That was the last time I saw her.

While I was away, I started to miss her. I don't know why but I really did mise her. I talked to her every once in a while via text, and I was cool with that. When I was away, one of the main reasons I wanted to returned was just to see her.  Unfortunately, that would not happen.  When I told her I was returing back to for valley,  she told me that she had transferred to another school. Of course I was sad about this, but at the same time,  I was happy because she was doing what made her happy.  I would text her once a month just to talk and that was cool. After awhile,  we lost touch with one another and I thought that was the end of the story, but occasionally,  she would inbox me on Facebook. I would  be happy to be able to talk to her and catch up with her.

All during this time,  I would starting thinking about her at days at a time.  She would be the only thing I would thing about,  and  I would start to miss her like crazy. I don't know why, but I just couldn't stop thinking about her. Its like I was missing a part of me or something like that. I would be cool,  and then in a second, I will be foused only her. I have tried to stop caring and stop thinking of her, but it just not happening.  This has been goning on for years and I see no end to this at all. As soon as I get back to normal,  something reminds me of her or she hits me up and I am back at square one once again.  I told my best friend about this she always tell me that I am in love. I don't know how true this is. All I know is this female is on my mind 80% of the time and sometimes my heart only wants to be with her.

So what does it all means? To be honest, I truly don't know.  All I can do is just play my cards and see what happens from there. At this point in our lives, we are at two very different stages in our lifes. Hell we are not even in the same continent anymore.  I truly don't know what wll of this means.  As soon as I believe I have things figure out,  theres is a curve ball thrown at me. Will this all out for the better? Who knows to be honest. All I know is everything happens for a reason.  What the reason for all of this? Well, as soon as I figured that out I will let yall know.  At the end,  this day will always hold a special place to me. Till this day, I can remember everything that happened on this day like it just happened. From the things we talked about to the clothes that she wore, every detail is etched into the depths of my mind,heart, and soul. This will always be known as the day that I met some one who at time I didn't realize how special they were be to me. Eventuality,  I feel that everything will work out for the best. So until then, I guess this saga of my life will continue to play out the way that it is meant to play out.

At the end, what will your line say about you?

I have been meaning to do this post for a few days now, but between working, and looking for new job, I really haven't been focused enough to actually do it. Well since I have some free time, now is a better time to go ahead with this. About two ago, i saw the tribute episode of glee to Cory Monteith and his character Finn Hudson. For those who don't know, Glee is one of my favorite shows and Cory was one of the biggest stars on the show. Unfortunately, Cory died this year due to an accidental overdose. As the Glee cast honored and said goodbye to Cory's character, one scene from this show stuck out the most to me. Towards the end of the episode,  one of the characters named puck said something while he was at the memorial tree that was planted in Finn's honor.  As he was talking to coach beast and looking at Finn's memorail, he says to the coach that the most important thing isn't the numbers that state when you leave and die. The most important thing is the line between the numbers.  Afterwards,  puck hops on his bike and coach beast tells him to have a good line.  That one scene had me thinking about what will my line say about me.

Now I am still young. So far, my line will say that I was a good friend, a good family person, a college graduate,  and working a part time job. I really haven't done anything big/major and I still in the process of becoming the man that I know I can be. Now some of yall who are reading this are probably thinking I have my whole to have a great line.  That's the thing, no one knows how long or short their line will be. We see these days that people are dropping like flies everywhere you look. Some people are old and some are young that are dying each and every day. Who is to say that I won't be one of the young who left this earth before reaching their potential. One of my biggest fears is that I will not live up to the potential that others see in me or, more importantly, not achieving the potential and greatest that I know I process.

I always tell people that all I am trying to do is  live life, be great,  and do dope shit. What that saying boils down to is three simple things: 1. I want to live my life to the fullest so I won't look back on my life and llive in the "shoulda, coulda, woulda" world. 2. In every thing I do, no matter how big or small it may be, I want to be the best/greatest to do it. 3. I want to do dope/cool/great stuff. I don't want to be one of the people that just reads about history.  I want to be the person that creates history.  I want to create an empire of greatness that will stand the test of time.  Most people may not see that this is possible, but I see examples that proves the doubters wrong.  People from all walks of life prove that with hard work, passion,  and drive, the seeming impossible can be achieve and become possible. That is exactly what I want to do.

As the the days come closer to my 25th born day, I begin to reflect on these years that I have lived. In all, I have lived a pretty normal/good life. Its only in the past year that I have really wanted more out of my life than just a regular life with a normal 9 to 5 while others follow thier dreams and make an impact in the world.  I know people that I know that are doimg this exact thing. They are starting businesses,  companies, and movements that can and will be major millistones in the upcoming years and decades. As my 25th born day comes, I plan to live a more full filling life. I plan to stop watching history and start making history.  I want to build an empire/legacy that will stand the test of time. I think the 3 most important things I want to achieve with the remaining of my life is become successful, be a person that someone can look up to and inspire them to do great things, and mostly importantly,  be the best version of me thqt I can possibly can be.  All these things and more is what I want my line to say qbout me when it is all say and done.

Things I dont get part 4 section b

Ok I back with last part of this two part saga. Now in part one, I talked about the dangers of mixing social media with personal information. Now I not going into detail on the post so if you haven't read it yet, then go check it out. If not then just tough.  So in section b, I will talk about the most said phrase in these cyber streets after someone, mainly a famous person, says after they go on a massive social media vent session, well expect kanye. So can you guess thats world phrase? If you said my account got hacked, then you are correct.

Now after his semi world famous tweet rampage, Gucci did the typical thing and say that his account was hacked. Well he didn't actually say that, his brother said it and gucci retweeted it but that's besides the point. Gucci did what other famous be have done; used the hacked twitter account excuse, which no one believes anymore, to save face. Some people do this, and others just delete what they posted and pray the mo one saw that they posted and/or took a screenshot of their madness. Now instead of saying that the person is fake, the thing that has me thinking is why did that person post that tweet, picture, or status in the first place. After countless minutes of thing, I have come up with two possible reason for this epidemic. 

The possible reason is they don't really mean for they posted in the first place. Now at one point or another we have all gotten hot head and said or done something in the heat of the moment. When that happened  back in the day, we could get away with it if no one saw what we did or we could apologize what the actions that we have done. That is not the case anymore these days. With everybody recording their lives on the internet via social media, a hot headed moment can not be simply taken away. Once something is on the net, it is there forever, and then with the procession of screenshots, nothing really belongs to anybody anymore. Now something that a person probably didn't even mean is out there for the whole world to see.

The second reason I see this happening is for promotion for a movie, album, makeup, or anything that require people to buy it. Now lately I been seeing this trend happen quite often lately. A prime example of this would be what happened between Rhianna and Teyana Taylor a few weeks ago. Now I don't know exactly how this started but for a good hour, these two females were going at it on twitter. Now Teyana was really passionate about the issue. She was going all the way in. Now Rhianna on the other hand, not so much. At first, she was going in then she flipped the script and started to promote her new mac make up line. No only did she promote her make up line, she basically took advantage of Teyana. I guess what they say is true; there is no such thing as bad press.

As the need to vent via internet grows, this hot headed social media epidemic will continue to grow and get out of hand. If folks are going to keep during this, then at least own up to it. Don't back out and disown what you put out into the world. Just own up to it and move on because at the end of the day, no one really cares until you making a big deal about it. As much as i have talked about him, I have to give up to Gucci. After it was all said and down, he eventually owned up to his twitter rampage and apologized to everyone. So take a page from him in this case and keep it 100 at all times.

Things I don't get part 4 section a

Freaks and Greeks, once again we are back at it. Y'all know the routine; I go on about something I don't get and y'all read it and probably think either "yeah he got a point" or "what the fuck is he talking about".  Nonetheless, let's get on with the show. I been meaning to blog this since this event happened but with work taking up my time these days, I had not had time but I do now. So earlier this month, gucci mane had Twitter and these cyber streets ablaze with his digital rampage. Now being somewhat entertained by this negrodom and hurting my head trying to read/understand Gucci tragic excuse for tweets, I began to think to myself he sure is putting a lot of folks "business" out there. Then when he later retweeted his brother tweet about Gucci account being hacked, I thought to myself "I figured that would happened". So because of Gucci Mane, this installment of Things I don't get will be broken down into two subjects that relate to that blog worthy event.

So in this post I deal with the dangers of sharing your business with everybody. Now for a good three to five hours, Gucci Mane went on a twitter rampage. He went after everybodies, from rocko to waka. No was safe from the slander he was dashing out. Hell, even Obama could have gotten hit with some slander form Gucci. The two people who received the most slander from Gucci Mane was no other than rocko and Nicki Minaj. When it comes to rocko, I do not know exactly what he was saying because his broken english prevented me from understanding the just of the his tweets. From what i did understand, apparently Rocko had ran up on him and this drove off. Then he went after Nicki saying that he paid her $60 bucks for sex. After this both rocko and Nicki responded to him, but I won't go into all of that. Now even though all of this was fake, the whole thing was somewhat entertaining. 

Now I do not get why people get mad and then post folks business all out in the open. it amazes me how one small falling out can set off a whole twitter war, and in this war, personal info is the mot lethal weapon. What happened to dealing with personal business in person, face to face?  Long has going these days, and instead, personal issues now go to the internet for everybody to see. Then any personal info that was shared between the two gets used as a weapon. It not only hurts the person, but in the long run, it hurts you as well. By posting everyone business, you give off the impression that you cam not be trust with nothing. It also show your level of maturity as well. It also will not help your chances of making new friends and keeping your friends that you already have.

In these days of mass info sharing, nothing is a secret anymore. Anything that is said or done can and will be used against you in the cyber streets of the internet. I not saying do not tell your friends things. I just saying just be careful of what you tell people these days because what just seems to be a convo between two people can very easily turned into a weapon of mass slander.  Another then, do not let it even get to this point in the first place. if you find yourself in a fallout with someone, talk it out. If talking it out does not work, then at least be mature enough not to put that person business out for everyone to see. As the golden rule states, treat others as you would like to be treated. If you do not want your business all out there for everyone and their mommas to see, then do not to others. And on the off chance you still would do it just remember two things; 1. You are what you put into the universe 2. karma always has a way of evening the score. Now on to section b. 

The day that changed everything

Today marks the 12 year anniversary of the attack of the world trade center in NYC. As I began my usual morning routine, I saw people on social media express their feelings on this day, and also give their own account on where they were on that day.Now as I read people accounts on this day, my mind began to drift back on where was I on that day and How I felt on that day.

So on 9-11-200, I was in the 7th grade at Fort Middle School. Now on that day, we was supposed to have an open house. From the time school began on that day, all I was concerned about my mom talking to all my teachers. I mean what student actually likes for their parents to talk to their teachers. I know I didn't and still till this day i don't like that idea. So as i up in class stressing about the upcoming open house, the principal comes on the intercom, and states that the open house has been cancelled. Those were the sweets words that I heard all day. Now keep in mind that my principal didn't state why open house got cancelled, and at the time, I really did not care. So as soon as school let out, I rushed to find my mom to tell her that open house was cancelled. Without even questioning it, all she said was "I figured it would be." I had no idea what she meant by that at the time,  but little did I know those five words would have a big impact on  my world.

When I got home, all the tvs in the house was on the news station.  There was a haunting silence in the house. All you could hear was the hum of the tvs at the time. I notice everyone had a look of sadness and confusion as their face were glued to the tv. I asked what was wrong, but i got no answer. When i finally turned to see what was on tv, I couldn't believe what I had saw. First two planes crashed into the world trade center buildings. The buildings caught on fire. People began to jump out of the buildings. Then if all of this was not bad enough , the buildings that once stood tall and mighty crashed into the ground. in the blink of an eye, the world trade center was no more. As all of this was going on, I thought at first it was part of a movie trailer. No one could explain to me what was going on before my eyes.  Then one of my friends called me. That when he it all sank in: this isn't fake, this is actually happening.

Then if all of that was not bad enough, another plane hit the pentagon. Then, another plane was hijacked and crashed in PA. In a matter of moments, the whole world stood still. Never had their been an attack like this happen in America. No on knew for sure who was behind the attack. People had an idea, but no one dared to call out a name. Their was a lot of missed emotions in this tragic. While all of this was happening, my thought were on my grandparents in New York. I did not know if they were along the people that was facing this head on. Eventually, my mom got in contact with my grandparents and for a split second, things seemed to be alright in my world. As the day went on, there where reports on how many people had lost their lifes and countless reports of folks missing, and no one was really getting in contact with anyone. On this day, city that never sleeps was in everyone's thoughts as prayers.

Now my mind was thinking about all the loses and happened on that day. On my way to work, I also began to remember something else that happened that day. On that day, America and its people truly became one. All of the things that divided us as country seemed to disappear. Who you are, what race you are, what kind of upbringing you had, whether you are gay or straight, none of that mattered on that day. The only thing that mattered to people is who they could help one another. The fire fights the police, and the EMTs did not care about who you were, they only wanted to save a person's life. The doctors and nurses did not care about your background, they only wanted to say a person's life. The thousand of people who gave blood did not care if you were gay or straight, they only wanted to save a person's life. The people who gave their life to save others did not care any of these things, all they wanted to say a person's life. Despite all of the death, sadness, and destruction that occurred on that day, the act of unity and selflessness provided a bean of light on that day full of darkness.

So on this 12 year anniversary of the attack on the world trade center, I will remember the tragic event that happened on that day but I will also remember the lessons that were taught on that day as well.  I learned that when we as a people as a country come together as one, there is nothing that we cannot do. I learned that what divides us is not what matters at the end of the day. I learned that even in the most darkness times, there is always hope that will shine through it. And the most important thing i learned on that day is at the end of the day, despite everything, when are people and we truly do care about one another. 

Keep your foot on the neck of the competition

While ladies and germs, its been awhile since I did a post but here we are. A lot has happened in the world in the month of August, and while i could go into detail about each topic, that would be a waste of mine and your time. I will discuss one thing that has the urban world shaken up. Everybody knows about it, but I believe has misinterpreted the meaning behind it.  Everybody thinks it was/is a diss, but I believe it is more than that. If you haven't guessed at what I am talking, then I will tell you. Of course I am talking about Kendrick Lamar's verse on the song "Control".

Now even through this is Big Sean's song, the main reason why this song is on the mind of the hip hop world is due to Kendrick Lamar verse. On his verse, there are two main verse that have him in the mouth of so many hip hop heads. First, he said he was the king of the West Coast and the King of New York. Then he called out a lot of hip hop giants int the game right now. He said ,
"I'm usually homeboys with the same niggas I'm rhymin' wit
But this is hip hop and them niggas should know what time it is
And that goes for Jermaine Cole' Big KRIT, Wale
Pusha T, Meek Millz, A$AP Rocky, Drake
Big Sean, Jay Electron', Tyler, Mac Miller
I got love for you all but I'm tryna murder you niggas
Tryna make sure your core fans never heard of you niggas
They don't wanna hear not one more noun or verb from you niggas
What is competition? I'm tryna raise the bar high"
Now because of this, a lot of people feel that Kendrick is dissing this said names.At first glace, it does sound like this but if you really listen to the verse, he is actually giving these artist a complement.

Now you maybe he wondering how is he giving this artist a complement by calling people out. Well that is easy. You are supposed to be better than your competition. In his eyes, these people are his competition. Each one of this artist are great in their own right. Their albums/Mixtapes have down major numbers. Their works have received praise from hip hop fans and legends alike. That's why I believed he called out these people names. Aren't you supposed to be the best at what you do? I mean who wants to be the second greatest of all time? If you do, then you are falling in life. I know I am trying to be the best at whatever i do, no matter how big or small it is. And how does one become the best? By going up against the best. If this song is a diss, I believe it is a diss to everybody whose name wasn't mentioned by him.

Another effect that this verse has had is it's lighten a fire under everybody's ass. Not even 24 hours after the song was released did artist take to twitter to react to Kendrick. Then after the wave of tweets came in, the next wake of responses to the verse popped up all other the world. It seems like mostly NY rappers and the rappers who weren't mention make up the bulk of these responses. To me, Kendrick did more than just declare that he is coming for the throne of hip hop. He also started a wave of rappers stepping up their rap game, or at least trying to in some cases.

Whatever you are trying to be the best in, there will always be people who are equal to you, or better than you. The question is what will you do about it. Will you settle for being second best, or will you be the G.O.A.T? That means greatest of all time just in case you didn't know that. Never be afraid to be great. To close out this post, I will leave you with two quotes. As Charlamagne Tha God say, "Keep your foot on the neck of the competition". As Ricky Bobby once said, "If you're not first, then you're last". And yes, I did quote a movie character.

Things I don't get part 3

Beautys and beasts, before I start sharing some random thoughts, I just wanted to say thank you for stopping by and reading these random post of mine. I have been getting some awesome feed back about this blog, and for that I once again say thank you very much. Now that we have got all the mushing stuff got of the way, now it is thank to get the post of the night.

So lately, I have seen a trend that is starting to slowing come back into full affect once again. This trend started back around the second half of the year 2012. This trend had people wilding out more than usually. This trend had folks, in their eyes, living life to the fullest. This trend was had some folks not giving a damn about their actions or the consequence of these actions.  Have you guessed the trend that I an going on and on about? If not, I will give you one more hit. It all start with a lyric from the song "The Motto". That's right, I am talking about that four letter acronym that was made popular by Drake aka wheel chair Jimmy. That was a degressi reference for does who did not know. That trend, that acronym that is slowly but surely making a comeback is........*wait for it*.......Y.O.LO.

Now I know that most of the people who are reading this already knows what Y.O.L.O. means, but for the .01% of folks who don't know what it mean, Y.O.L.O. stands for you only live once. Now I thought folks already knew that before Drake pointed that out, but that is besides the point of this post. So after this acronym was broadcast upon the billions and billions across the world, people took that acronym really to heart. People began to throw cation to the wind, and started to really wild out. These actions would be posted to twitter, facebook, and instagram. Their excuse for these actions would be none other then Y.O.L.O. This is where I think people lost the real meaning, in my eyes, of Y.O.L.O. 

Here is what I don't get; since you only live once, why would you part take in actions that would shorten your life or put your future at risk? I mean it is cool to live in/for the moment every once in awhile, but not all the time. If you are always living in the moment, how can you life for your future? The answer is you can't. I sure people don't want to live in the world of "what if", and that can work on both ends of the coin. You don't want to miss out on fun and wonder "what if " as a young person but you don't want to regret doing something later on in life and wonder "what if" you didn't do a certain action. Since you only live once, wouldn't you want to extend your life as much as possible? Now I am not saying go live in a plastic bubble, but don't go running in the hallway with a pair of scissors in your hand. 

In the relaunch of the Y.O.L.O. trend, I believe there needs to be a relaunch of what it really means. Don't go all out and be reckless, but don't be afraid to live life. With everything in life, the key to Y.O.L.O. is balance when you look at. Take this acronym and use it to live your life to the fullest. Since you only life once, don't be afraid to follow/go after your dreams. Since you only life once, never let a moment go by without telling someone, that you really care for, how much they really mean to you. Since you only live one, help other people out in any way you can. Since you only live once, use your talents to change the world for the better. Most importantly, since you only live once, be who you want to be and not what others expect you to be.

Together we stand, divided we fall

Disclaimer....i wasn't going to doing a post on this topic but after a talk with a great friend of mine, I was encouraged to do this so here we go...thanks khris

On a rainy night on 2-26-2013, a 17 year old male by the name of Trayvon Martin was on his way home after leaving a seven eleven. During the same time, a volunteer neighborhood watchman bu the name of George Zimmerman was on his way to target. Little did these two people know that what would occur that night would send shock waves throughout America. Later that night, a 911 call would record a moment that no one will never forget: the sound of a gun shot fired by George Zimmerman killing Trayvon Martin. Fast forward to 7-13-2013, the verdict for the trail of the year was broadcast to the world. GEORGE ZIMMERMAN: NOT GUILTY. This would send outrage, sadness, and anger throughout America, especially in African American population.

As the verdict was read, people took to social media to share their reaction to this. Some voiced sadness, some voiced violence, and some voiced a sense of hopelessness for the treatment, and future of the African American race. This brought black together with a common thought; How and why did this tragic event take place?  What could we do to together to stop this from happening again? Well, this is an complex issue with many possible situations.  Before you can get an answer, you have to get to root of the problem. To must people, the root of this issue is racism. While this is a key factor of this case, it is not the only root of this problem. The other root of this people is, in fact, ourselve

While racism is a topic we can go on and go about, we can not expect others to the change the way other people treat/think about African American until we change ourselves. In my option, we as a race need to get back to the mindset we had back in the 60s/70s. During those times, we were united in everything we did. We shared common goals, cared about one another, and wanted to see one another go farther in life.We had pride in our race, and would take action if wrong was done to one of our own. What happened to these values and morals that we once had? Now a days, that is not the case. I'm not saying don't have those morals and values, but they are not as shown as other things. It seems as the only time we are united as a race is when a member of another race does wrong by us. When we do wrong by our own race, we don't take to the streets or the net to stop the violence. We have gotten accustomed to black on black violence and death. We rather bring people down than to let the up. We rather "turn up" than to do something positive. We rather work alone than to achieve as a race.Then we have the nerve to get mad other races when they do us wrong. How can we expect other races to treat us right if we don't do right by ourselves? They treat us how we treat ourselves.

So how can we fix this in order to better our ace and our stand in America? By standing together,  stop putting each other down, and stop killing each other. We as a race process more powerful than we realize. When we stand together and become united, we are a force to be reckon with. When we get focused and become united, shit will happen for the betterment of our people. How do you think things got achieved is the 60s/70s? By being on one accord. Together we stand, divided we fall. Now that a possible solution has be brought to light, now the question is what will it take for the African American race to be united and take a stand for ourselves??? 

Trapped inside the matrix

It is amazing how I think of the most randomness things and somehow find a way to make my thoughts make sense. I low-key believe my IQ could be so high that there isn't a way to measure it, but I digress.....I am not here to talk about how smart I secretly think I am. Today, my post is a somewhat squeal to a previous  blog I did about the movie THE MATRIX. In the post, I talked about how the movie how certain aspects of my life soft of mirrored that movie. In the post I will be talking about the real life matrix that so many people are trapped in. 98 % of the world is caught up inside this matrix.  Some people know it and some don't know it. Have you guessed what the real world matrix is? Well if you haven't, I will tell you. The matrix is none other than social media.

Since I don't know when social media actually popped of, I will use the year I was introduced to it.as a.starting point as far as a timeline for this. So back in 2004, social media begin to go mainstream with a site called blackplanet. That was a site mostly for black people. Now fast forward to about mid 2005, the world was introduced to MySpace. This really was a game changer because you could share your pics, music, videos, and more importantly your thoughts/feelings to any and everyone. Because of MySpace, the way we interacted with people changed forever. Soon after that, social media sites such as Facebook, Twitter, and instagram became a must have in the world.

Another big millstone in the social matrix had to do with cell phones. Before smart phones came out, you had to use computers to use these sites. Now there's an app fora just about all social media sites. When a person sees something now, all it takes a few clicks of a button from your phone and all things can and will be shared from the comfort of your phone. When this happened, the social matrix began its takeover.

With this millstone, people began to broadcast everything they did/do for the world to read and see. People began to post more pics and videos of any and everything. More and more, people began to share their life's for the world to see. People began to  connect with people more through  cyberspace and disconnected from the real world. Folks would rather talk to someone through these sites than speak to a person in the real world. This led to an uprising epidemic know as cyber confidence.

Cyber confidence is the act of telling a person something that should be said in person. Because of the number game and  like this and I will tell you something, folks began to relayed on these sites more than ever before. What they couldn't tell someone face to face they told the person on a computer screen. In doing so, folks have lost the connection between person to person interaction and instead relied on technology for basic human interaction/interpersonal skills.

Then people stopped being themselves as well. Instead of being themselves, they portray a person that they think others want them to be. And for what, just to gain some new people that they may never meet in the real world? Or to be someone that they wish they  could be? By doing this, they begin to live in the matrix and disconnect from the real world. It gets to a point that some people act like their cyber self in the real world. The matrix has them believing that version of themselves is the only one people will like.

So now the question is how do people free themselves from the matrix. Well the only true way is to destroy social media all together. Since that's not going to happen, a more realistic solution is to spend less time in cyberspace and/or have more confidence in yourself. If folks they like you for being yourself, they you don't need to try to befriend them/impress them. Also by spending less time on social media, you can meet real life people, network, and gain enhance those interpersonal skills that will be so helpful down the road called life. So in the end, social media is OK as long as you don't let it consume you, guide you, and disconnect you from the real world.

Things I dont get part 2

Well once again, we have another installment in the things I don't series. For this installment, I will be dealing with a interesting topic to say the least. In this installment, I will be dealing with an epidemic that is sweeping across the African American community. The affect of this epidemic can be seen in both male and female. This will have people going against some of the very principles that are rooted deep down in their souls. It is more powerful than a F5 tornado, and it is more addictive than crack , so I've heard. It will make you stop doing everything you are doing at that time. In fact, some people will even leave work earlier just for it. If you haven't figured out what this epidemic is, I will tell you. This epidemic is........,*wait for it*..........is the t.v. show SCANDAL.

For does who don't know what this show is about. I will give you a brief description of the main plot of  the show. So the president of the USA is having an affair with his former employee which just so happen to be a black chick. The black chick helps out of sticking problems along with her team. If you want to know more, google, wiki, and Netflix are at your disposal. Now that we have that little bit of info, next get on with this blog post.

The thing I don't get about this show is why are black people, especially females, are so into this show. Don't get me wrong, this show sounds like it's good/interesting just based off the main plot of the show. If you be on any social media site during the time scandal is on, you will see black females rooting for the prez and the black chick AKA the side chick love.  I guess the prez is in a loveless marriage and really wants to be will the black chick. So basically, black females or supporting cheating.

In the black community, there are three main things that will hit a bad spot with our females 1. A black dude dating a white guy  2. Cheating 3. Realizing they been dating a nigga "read the first post to understand what I mean". So if cheating is a big no no, then why do they support this affair? I asked one my home girls this question and the response was interesting. "He doesn't love his wife, he would rather be with the black chick than his wife but can't. This is just a modern day Romeo and Juliet." If this is the case, why don't he just leave his wife. If it is really true love, then nothing should stop him from being with his true love.

Now I know this is just a show, but it means a lot in a bigger picture. By watching this show, black females are basically saying that it is ok to cheat in certain instances. Will this be a new trend among black females who are not in love with the person they are with? Or is it ok because this just a tv show? What if president Obama was in this same situation? Would our mothers, sisters, aunts and cousins support him or disown him? Something  for y'all to think about.

At the end of the day, this is just a t.v. show. These are not real people, and should not make us care about them but we do. What message are we sending the world when people watch this show? Better yet, what is this how relaying to us, especially the younger viewers? It is up to us  what we will allow, and support because this is not only a show, it is a representative of the African American female as well.

The Matrix

I found it interesting how some movies can describe certain or current views of our lives. Now most people would tend to have a realistic movie reflect their lives. It is rare that a SCI fi/fiction movie can describe our modes or our view points at the time. Well at the moment, the movie that I can relate to, at the moment, is the matrix. Now I bet you wondering how this movie applies to me. Well since you asked, I guess I will tell y'all.

In the matrix, Neo has a normal 9 to 5 like everyone else. When he meets Morpheus, he world gets turned upside down. Neo is offered two choices; take the blue pull and keep living the life he is living or take the red pill and learn the truth. After taking the red pill, Neo awakens in the true world where the machines have taken over the world  and humans are plugged into the matrix while being used as batteries for the machines. Now that you have a brief some what description of the movie, let's continue.

As I see it, at one point in life everyone is Neo. Right now, I'm Neo. For the most part of my life, I have been plugged into the matrix. Now everyone have their own matrix. Mine so happened to be school. Now I did the whole college route to in the hopes of getting a job. After I took the red pill aka graduated from college, I entered the real world. Boy I tell you life outside the matrix is no joke. You have bills to pay, student loans to pay, and other less desirable adult like things while trying to find my way in life.

While finding my  way, I deal with my fair share of Agent Smith.  Agent Smith was in charge of keep law and order in the matrix and fight the resistance. My Agent Smith consist of folks who want me to plug back into the matrix by saying either go to grad school or work at one of these jobs that basically turn you into a corporate robot. Ain't no one got time for that.

That's how the matrix applies to my life. As I continue to fight the matrix aka making it in the real world, I hope and pray I can find my way while also unplugging folks from the matrix. 

Things I don't get

"Nigga ain't Shit." "Where the real men at." "I need a real nigga in my life." If you are African America, or hang with some black people, then it's a strong possibility that you have heard the above quotes come out of the mouths of a black female. Time and time again, 8 out of 10 black females will complain about how hard it is to find a good man and how "niggas" ain't Shit. REALITY CHECK.....NIGGAS HAVE NEVER BEEN, ARE NOT, AND NEVER WILL BE SHIT.

The problem I see is that most black females are want a nigga with real man qualities. They want a guy with a nigga mind set that will treat them how a real man treats her will honor, respect, and all that other good stuff.  In my 24 years of life, I have never ever seen a nigga treat a women right. You can't expect a grown man who is known not to be faithful, not have a job, got a tom kids, and no ambition to change just because you with him now. Then after the female finally realize this, they develop a case of MBWS aka Mad Black Woman Syndrome. At this phrase, all men in their eyes are "niggas" and can't be trusted. 

When a real man comes to them, they will either get the cold shoulder, disrespected, get put in the friend zone, or simply get looked over for that nigga. After this happens a few times, the real man will either become a nigga, or commit the number one sin in the eyes of 7 out 10 black females.....date/marry a white female.
 
At the end of the day, there are real men in the world ladies. They will treat you right, support you, and give you everything they have to make you happy. When you meet him, don't chose a nigga over him, or let MBWS cloud your judgment. If you do, you will probably join the "where the real men" club along work the millions of other African American females.